Mental Block

Things always seems to almost happen with me. I'm battling with the Manifestation Process. I never seem to quite get where I need to be. I'm always nearly there. I know I am more than capable of reaching my true potential, I just don't know how. Okay, just to back track, there are a series of events which make me believe that I am blocking myself from growing spiritually, careerwise, in life. It's that fear of failure, that what if something happens (usually the total opposite of my desired outcome) I keep thinking that hey, maybe something is wrong with my way of thinking. The Mental Block which I am referring to is when your heart and your head are having a conversation and then that sinking feeling of possible failure seeps through and stops you on your tracks from this frivolous thought of yours. I know exactly when I do it. I think I get inspired, and then I want to do something about it, I think about the cost (My favourite Mental Block) and then I think that I am a selfish mother for wanting this etc, etc. So far this year, I have had the rare opportunity to speak with the PA of Bob Proctor (from "the Secret") in Toronto, about my desire to become a Life Coach and a Motivational Speaker going to an upcoming Motivational Cruise. But then again I thought about it, (would still love to go), and did not let it happen. I recently sent an article to Oprah Magazine South Africa, I received an email from PA to the Editor / Editorial Assistant thanking me for email and asking me for me feedback on my Sista Circle Project which might be of interest to their readers. How unbelievable is that? (You have no idea how long I have wanted to be involved in an Oprah anything.) Let alone having something published in her mag. This had certainly given me the Hope to continue. I really think that the "universe" is responding in the most amazing way and yet I can't seem to get to the next step. Anyway after submitting my required information, (all of 10 times) she did not receive it due to technical problems on their side. Now I can't stop wondering what if and the Mental Block has intervened once again reminding me to leave it alone.